Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Clarity Please...

Several experiences this past week have challenged my definition of "Mom."  What role do we, as mothers, take?  Do we remain quiet and go behind the scenes to fix what is broken?  Or do we force ourselves out there and put a stop to what is wrong?  Or do we altogether ignore the outside forces and focus only within the walls of our homes?

I don't know the answer to this challenge.  After this week I am probably more confused than ever.  I suppose a great legal argument could be made for each tactic.  I have given great thought to avenues of approach.  Still I come up somewhat empty handed.  What I do know, is my walls just got taller and thicker this week.  What happens within these walls just got more important.  What happens within these walls just got more personal.  The outside world has chiseled away at me this week.  Pop shots really.  Low blows.  Below the belt illegal kicks.  No mas!

Whatever avenue of attack, I have 5 little bodies who depend on me, their Mom.  I know I must pick the battle strategy carefully.  Fire only when necessary.  Unfortunately, (genetics talking here) I was born to be their advocate and the wrong is still wrong.  Why does every fiber of my being want to find the justice?  (Yes, genetics definitely talking here...)

I am grateful tonight for a quiet reminder.  Not the answer to approach, but rather a gentle reminder that within these walls come first.  Righting the wrong comes second.  Both important, but these 5 little bodies trump all.

5 comments:

Dena said...

Too many sit on the sideline/fence and remain silent. Take a stand for what is right.

Mark and JaNae Barrow Family said...

Love the post! Hold on for what is coming..be prepared! We truly are "circling the wagons" and "all is safely gathered in" have become frequent words in our home!

Brittani said...

I am not sure what is going on, but such a wonderful post. It is hard when things happen that make us re-evaluate what is going on in our lives. But it is then when we really begin to understand God's plan for us. The refiner's fire. We will learn and grow from these experiences and we will find what will eternally make us happy. And what will eternally make you happy is those 5 beautiful mouths to feed. I love you!

Tristen said...

I also don't know your situation, but it sounds like you have thought it through and I actually am with you on your priorities (from the last paragraph). Kids come first and I have a feeling it is what will bring you the most lasting peace anyways. You will stand when it's right but until then take care of those sweet kidlets!

Grammie said...

"You have the answer, Lindsey. Never forget the sweet quote by Pres. Monson "When the seas of life are stormy, a wise mariner seeks a port of peace." And I don't have to tell you how stormy are the seas of life. Those five beautiful children are so blessed to have you and Brit as their parents. We love you all so much. Mom